Okay, I just want to start off by saying how amazingly soft these quilts are. I knew once I opened my package from Baby Bare Essentials that the girls and I would get a ton of use out of these. Ella kept touching them so I knew she loved them as well. These beautiful quilts are made from a soft breathable material which is perfect for your littles! Also, it would make the perfect baby shower gift or for your soon to be little one.
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My last blog post was 5 months ago and I miss writing and posting to my blog so much!
Having two tiny humans to raise is no joke!! Ella and Addy are getting older now so I feel like I have somewhat of a routine down for them. They both nap at the same time and it gives me time to eat lunch, relax and breath. I'm hoping during their nap time I can start posting to my blog more often. So here is my very first blog post for the new year and I am currently writing this as they nap. :) Our household has been so crazy lately. My husband is an accountant and just started busy season a month ago so the girls and I rarely see him. He gets home so late at night and misses the girls before they go to bed. Its so sad, he sees them for about 10 minutes every morning before he leaves for work and the girls cry as he walks out the door. I always tell myself "only 6 months out of the year its like this." But it's so dang hard. I feel for you mamas who have husbands that travel regularly. I don't know how you do it. On the plus side, my brother moved in with us about 2 months ago and it has been so amazing. I jokingly tell people he's our nanny because he helps out around our house so much. We have gotten so used to him being here that he now joins us to watch "This is Us" every Tuesday night. haha! I usually bake something sweet and we all just sit on the couch trying not to cry. We are hooked on that show. If you have not watched, I highly recommend that you do. :)
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I wanted to share something that happened to me recently... About a couple weeks ago, as I was getting ready in the morning I saw a mole on my chest. I compared it to the rest of the moles on my body and it didn't look anything like the rest. For those of you who don't know me, my Mom had skin cancer so I always try to be safe while in the sun. Luckily, my mom's cancer was removed so its no longer an issue for her. But I took a picture of my mole and sent it to my mom and sister in a group text asking if it looked abnormal. My Mom told me I should get it checked out to be safe. I started looking up dermatologist on yelp and called three different places before I went with the dermatologist my gut instinct told me to go with. Three days later, I went to my appt and they asked me if I wanted to do a full body scan on all my moles. I immediately said yes! The dermatologist I saw was extremely nice and the sweetest person ever. She did a full body scan and everything looked normal until I pointed out the mole that was concerning to me. She agreed that it did look a bit abnormal and uneven so she sent it out for a biopsy. The dermatologist said that it would take about 7-10 days for my results. Let me just say, I am not a very patient person at all!! I called my husband, Tyler, immediately after the appointment and started crying. I am so self conscious about my skin and always afraid of getting skin cancer. I mean c'mon I live in San Diego where there is sunshine all year round. I always apply SPF to my face every day. I am probably the most pale person you will ever meet. I'm usually under an umbrella at the beach during the summer. All I could think was who is going to take care of my children if I'm gone? I know, I know I was talking crazy talk but these insane thoughts always run through my head. Please tell me I'm not alone? My sister and my mom were telling me not to freak out and began praying for me. There is no way I could wait 7-10 days for my results. You know that feeling when you just feel absolutely sick to your stomach and lose your appetite? Well that was me. I'm not sure why I was letting these thoughts get to me. Every time I take a shower that is my "me" time and the time that I pray. I can remember praying that God would send me some sort of sign that everything was going to be okay. As I got out of the shower, Ella and Addy were right there on the ground playing with daddy. As I started getting ready, I look over and Ella is staring at my every move. Tyler looks at Ella and says, "Don't worry, mama will teach you how to get ready just like that when you're older." I took that as my sign. That everything was going to be okay. It was Valentine's day and 7 days since I had my results sent off for a biopsy. It was around 4 o'clock on Tuesday and the girls and I were in their room playing. I called my dermatologist to see if my results had come in and they put me on hold for a couple minutes. This was when I started freaking out. I thought maybe they went to get the Dr. to break the horrible news to me. So I started praying hard. Praying that God would not take me away from my husband or my girls. The lady answered the phone and she said your results are in and your mole came back benign. I told the lady "oh my gosh! you scared me! I thought something was for sure wrong." She had mentioned that a Dr. hadn't reviewed my results yet so that's why it took so long. I hung up and immediately started bawling. I was holding Ella and squeezing her and then I grabbed Addy and started squeezing her and hugging and kissing them. I'm not sharing this to receive pity, I just wanted to share how good our God is. The power of prayer is so amazing!
Thank you so much for taking the time to read this long blog post and listen to me ramble about the crazy thoughts I have. Just know, if your have the same thoughts... you're NOT alone.